Anger Management

The serenity prayer goes like this:

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,The courage to change the things I can,And wisdom to know the difference.

I have always appreciated these words. For me anger is my achilles heel, the one obstacle I truly feel I cannot conquer, I just hope to control it. As I get older I I find myself constantly frustrated by those “things” which I have no control. It is frustrating constantly having to adapt to the world around me feeling completely powerless, even helpless.  Always reacting to change while trying to anticipate the future.  For me I believe this is where the root of my anger lies. Feeling powerless leads to frustration, frustration to resentment, resentment to anger. I am not usuallly a violent person but have developed a sharp tongue with an eye for others weaknesses. Given the right circumstance I can weave quite a tapestry of destruction. Point that talent inward and I can really do some damage. Yet I know that God wants me to live in peace, to enjoy life, forgive those who have trespassed against me. But I find myself inpatient with God, wanting his justice to be delivered yesterday,  often wondering what my fate would be if standing before him. Would I be ashamed? Yep, no doubt about it. But how do change something that is as innate as your eye color. Do these feelings have a purpose I am not yet aware of? Only God really knows me and I have faith that he knows I am trying. In this chaotic world at least that brings me some comfort.


Inspiring Collections

Inspiring Collections.

This blog was created in order to share and collect favorite Bible verses. I have my personal verses I look to for strength and guidance when things get a little bumpy. Others may have different verses that have the same effect. Some I may not know or remember. I hope you will share your verse here and maybe the circumstances behind its power. I am at a point where some inspiring thoughts certainly couldn’t hurt.

Please don’t post anything you don’t want reposted on other blogs.

I go back

As I lie here trying not to think about the injury to my back, I decided to go back and read some of my earlier posts. I don’t know how,  but I really seem to have taken an awfully big detour from my first intentions. When I first started writing it was intended to be an exercise to develop writing skills and nurture my spirituality.
It’s frustrating the detours faith often takes due to unforseen changes. Adjusting takes so much energy and detracts from your priorities. Getting back to where I once was seems like such a long journey. Not physically but spiritually. I hope that this challenge will strengthen my resolve and help solidify my faith.

Waiting for the high

I never thought that experiencing the love of God could ever be a hindrance to our spiritual growth. However, some of us have that initial, euphoric feeling when we first feel the holy spirit. What a great moment, that feeling of love is really indescribabable. Some Christians want and expect all the days of our lives to be filled with that jubilation. Believe it or not, God wants that for us as well. Yet, for whatever reasons we get back to our daily routines and lose the passion we once felt. What a pity we cannot go back and repeat that initial moment in time when God first touched our hearts. Some of us are sitting around waiting for that feeling to come back around. Some may have dismissed the experience all together.

Building faith and establishing a relationship takes work. Hard work! Knowing the living God only comes through trials and tribulations. Like the ones I am trudging through now. When you’re exhausted, broken, ready to give up, these are the moments where you will often feel the love of our father. Being discouraged, experiencing doubt, these are learning obstacles everyone must face. Remember what Jesus said when he was asked why he chose to associate himself with sinners.

And Jesus answered and said to them, “It is not those who are well who need a physician, but those who are sick.”

You never know, the influence you may have

What I really enjoy the most about small devotional groups are the little things you pick up. Later, these little tidbits of information become so much more. For me, my group happens to contain our pastor. His studies while at seminary introduced him to countless authors and his 25 years of experience is a blessing while I continue to explore ministry opportunities.

One of the authors he recently introduced me to is Oswald Chambers. Some may have heard of him, until my Pastor brought him up, I never had. His writing is quite unique and thought provoking but I think his story is most remarkable. He was never famous during his lifetime. He passed away in 1917 at only forty-three years of age. At the time he only written and published three books. His work was only recognized by just a few Christians in Britain and the U.S., he was highly praised as a teacher, considered to be gifted with a rare insight. But he, as an author, viewed himself somewhat of a failure. His wife posthumously collected his notes and sermons and had them published in a book called “My Utmost for his Highest”.  His writings since his death are now consideted to be one of the most influential Christian books ever written, selling millions of copy worldwide. It was modernized in the early 90’s to help with some of the antiquated wording, so that a whole new generation might enjoy his thoughts.

So what’s the point? First, I never would have been introduced to this man, this book, without the help of a friend guiding me along my journey. I know God walks with me, but taking time to discuss our father with other believers has been so helpful, and I realize now how important it is to share your thoughts with others. As with Oswald, noone can really know what effect your perspective may affect others. Even if you feel like your writing isn’t highly regarded,  you just never know. His story has given me so much hope and continues to motivate me. If even one of these articles helps someone that’s a change I help create. What a great feeling to know that we all have that power.