Living with the Angry

Life is hard isn’t it? It’s not the mundane actions we repeat everyday that make it hard.  It’s those moments that come along ever so often when a decision has to be made and either way the outcome is just going to suck. It’s these decisions that become changing points in our lives. Those moments that sometimes haunt us for years, always second guessing our decision.

Tonight I stand at one of those cross roads uncertain about which path to take. Hoping as I write, God may show me his way.

You see last night I heard a testimonial given by the daughter of the late Ray Charles. It was emotional journey of self destruction, (a 20 year crack addiction and 3 trips to Federal prison) culminating in glorious redemption. She now tours the world visiting lost souls in prison. In her testimony was a truth I didn’t want to face. Sometimes in order to claim the life God wants you to have means separating from the life you’re living. Positioning yourself as far away as possible from those that are filled with malice, greed or envy. In my case someone I love very much has allowed themselves to be consumed by anger. Wanting to take control of situations where they have no say. The more control they try assert over their life, the more frustrated and angry they become. These frustrations pile up until an incident causes them to be released in a flurry of self pity and misdirected tantrums. Instead of confronting their demons it’s easier to take it out on others who have done nothing wrong. Later apologizing for their actions. 

As a Christian is it my job to try to help or am I hindering my own growth by exhausting energy on something I can’t change. Like I stated before, either way the outcome will probably suck.


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